Friday, October 27, 2006
Bro's b-dae (24/10/2006)
happie birthday 2 u..... Hope u enjoyed e gifts n e cake.... Alot of $$ spent 4 u.... Pls treasure everything.....

Bro n his peach/logan cake

me, mum, bro n aunt with cake
'Mr frog' blowing out his candles...
it's you that i treasure.. 4:03 pm
So it became my fault???
I think u guys shd koe wat's is it all bout le... In e 1st place, ur can juz come find me n ask me wat's e problem with me.... In e letter, i told wl v clearly wat happened le n if ur still cant understand wat's going on, i dunno how 2 simplify it further....I koe ur din do it purposely (i assumed)... It's juz sth tt happened.... I gave u guys clues, mayb ur didnt koe or misinterpreted it(tt's wat miss peh said) Ur din do anything or try to talk 2 me.... It's only during promos tt sz came n ask me how''s chem n phy paper... THAT"S ALL!!! If u guys did try to talk 2 me n i ignored ur or gave cold replies, pls tell me..... aft things happened n 4 so long, ur came n talk 2 me only tt 2 times..... I din put up any false front.... I gave u guys tt v pissed off attitude all e time... things din not get any better throughout tt whole time.... like i said, dun assume tt things got better.... I understand tt u guys got closer n i dun blame u guys 4 it.... but spare a tot 4 others? Wat e pt of joining u guys when i cant get e link wat's ur talking bout? ur juz automatically walk off aft assembly with ur own cliques... I was juz left alone at e assembly grd.... If ur try 2 include me then it's really my problem as i rejected u guys.... but tt wasnt e case.... wl ---- Since u went thru sth similiar, i supposed u knew how's it's like 2 be isolated frm e rest.... it's a horrible feeling seeing ur frenz leaving u out.... i dunno how u resolved tt matter or was e matter resolved.. e main thing is it's a horrible thing n u'll be juz waiting 4 e other party 2 do sth... when things dragged n u waiting 4 sth 2 happened, it'll b difficult to try n solve e problem.... BJ, MP, thx 4 being there.... BJ, aft our conversation yest, i'll try 2 understand frm both sides... But u oso muz understand how it's like n feel.... i'll try my v best 2 tone down my attitude mayb give more enthu reply if they try 2 talk 2 me again.... Like i said, if u really mean 2 solve things, i'll gladly listen n do my part... But if juz 4 e sake of getting over n done with, then i'm sorry... I wont entertain u.... Sincerity is sth tt can be felt....
it's you that i treasure.. 3:25 pm
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
I dunno if i've forgiven them n no longer angry with them le..... I really dunno..... They hurt me deep.... Today sth happened but i dun think it's a gd gauge..... I think if anyone saw it, they will oso do e same thing as me....Sth really horrible n embarrassing happened to 1 of them..... It so happened tt 1 was e only one who saw it..... Given wat they did to me, i can juz pretend tt i neva see anything n not say anything till someone sees it..... But e thing is, tt tot neva came to my mind at all..... (Haven i forgiven them le???) E sec i saw it, i jumped up frm my seat n went over to help her out..... I did my best to protect her frm any form of embarrassment n did watever i shd do till she's into 'safety'..... I actually so readily offered my help to someone whom i'm angry n pissed off with..... I'm confused..... Everytime i see them together so happily, i'm boiling..... They could do such a thing to their classmate n juz pretend tt nothing happened..... There's so many of them n ALL of them are so INSENSITIVE!!!! I koe how it's like to leave someone out.....(过来人) The feeling is terrible..... e matter wont b resolved unless they apologised to e person who's left out.... but it'll not b so simple.... I experienced both sides now...... The 'victim' always will auto display obvious 'symptoms' sub-consciously..... Mayb it'll take some time to spot but not so long...... Haiz....Mayb i shd juz ignore them n get on with my new clique..... Think tt's e best way..... Mayb ignoring them n getting on life w/o them will b better..... miss peh, think tis is e best way unless 老天爷 give me another situation tt can test everything out...... i dun wan myself 2 b upset over such ppl..... Too tired le.... Too many things happened le n they have drained off lots of energy frm me..... have 2 save e last bit of energy 4 impt stuff......
it's you that i treasure.. 9:44 pm
So happening today.....
Thx to Sam n Bijun, i had such a happy day today..... It's been soo long since i laughed so heartedly like today.... It all started with sth so simple.... Going to the guitar room..... In e end, we did sth so unexpected n random..... All our reactions are "Oh My God!!!" Super hilarious... Thankfully (n i really hoped) no one saw e whole incident.... If not, it'll b so embarrassing...... Heng, we managed 2 duck but Sam din really get 2 run away.....I think if we were juz 1 sec slower, she would have opened e door n see 3 crazy ppl outside her class.... Cant imagine wat her reaction would be n how would her class react..... I still cant get over e incident.... I'm like laughing n blogging at e same time..... It's still freah in my memory..... Haha.... Sam, i hope ur head is alright.... Take care......
it's you that i treasure.. 9:32 pm
Friday, October 13, 2006
Thanks to all e teachers who helped me..... I really appreciated it v. much..... Mdm azian: thx for all e help u rendered to us. Though it was juz tt short while n u've 2 squeeze everything into our brain, but i really appreciated it very very much..... Though not tt well done for GP, but i can see e improvement.... Thanks alot.... Miss Peh: Thanks for being there.... I koe tt i ignore u a few times when u seemed concerned.... So sorry for tt... When i cant control, i would prefer 2 get away n cool down 1st b4 seeing anyone..... Hope u'll understand.... Anyway, thanks for all ur help..... Greatly appreciated.... Miss devi: Thanks for all e help u've given.... I'm so sorry tt i did so badly for chem..... I didnt koe wat happened..... I'm so sorry.... to Karen, xin ni, joyce, jie yi, huisi n junhan..... Thanks to all my beloved...... Thanks for being there n encouraging me.... Love ya..... U guys have always been here for me since long time ago..... Seeing u guys make me forget all e unhappiness n make me e happiest n luckiest girl to have so many good friends.... True friends.... Not like those ppl( u guys koe who r them, rite?) Well, i think i shd be able to make it..... Let's go study during e holidays... i need to buck up for some subj..... A BIG BIG thank you to all of u!!! Muacks.....
it's you that i treasure.. 7:18 pm
Disappointed......
Promos are finally over n we've got back our results le..... SAddening promos then saddening results...... Tis promos was not a killer exam... It was a okie n fine exam... But...... WAd happened to me??? Why??? I could do the more difficult qns frm TYS... WHY cant i do a simpler paper??? WHY??? I really cant perform under exam conditions?? WHAT will happen nxt yr???? 'A' LVLS!!!!! I cant afford to not to perform for tt MAJOR exam..... If i cant perform to my standard then i'll die badly.... REALLY DIE BADLY!!!!
I was over e moon when i got back my phy results.... I thot i would fail badly for it n i would need all my H2 subj to pass..... But a surprise came... I did not fail...... I did way better than wat i would expect.... Phy n econs were e 2 subj tt i totally had no confidence at all...... I had been failing n cant understand phy ever since i took e subj..... I told my tutor e day b4 phy :" dun expect too much for phy.... I dun think i can pass.... Cannot de.... Dun expect too much..." Aft e paper, i called my tutor n it was :" No need to expect anything le.... e paper damn difficult.... i cant finish e paper n got alot of qns i dun really got confidence of my ans... Die le... Sure fail..." But when i got back e paper.... OH MY GOD.... I actually passed n did way beyond expectation..... Yahoo..... A huge improvement frm CT.... From a U to a C.... Happy.....
E rest of e subj not so well done.... Maths oso got improve.... From S to mayb a C..... Econs nothing to say.... Cuz no matter how hard i tried, i still cant make it..... So econs i dun expect too much.... When i did e paper, i was okie n i hoped for a miracle to be able to do okie.... But.... Well.... not so bad.... i didnt feel disappointed or sad for econs results....
However, chem was e worst..... I didnt koe wat happened..... My heart sank when i knew i didnt make it for chem... Chem was 1 of my okie subj n i didnt perform AT ALL!!!! I'm way way disappointed.... I'll need ages to get over tis (i need to get away frm chem 4 e time being).... A huge blow to me..... a teacher said:" tis chem paper is easy... if u came for lectures n did ur tutorials.. u have no problems with e paper" Further blow to me.... imagine u getting stabbed twice in a row.... OUCH!!!
it's you that i treasure.. 7:01 pm
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Shiok....
Went to e gym with my sis today.... It's so shiok aft e workout.... felt less like a pig aft e exercise.... Have been slacking so much for e past few days.... Aft today's exercise, din feel so guilty le.... I wan a more toned body!!! seeing those ppl there really make me work towards my target.... Their body really will make one go 'oh my god!!!'... Jia you jia you!!! Think shall continue 2 go gym during these 2++ mths... Muz train up!!!
e tot of receiving our promos result really freak me out!!! TMR!!!!! think we'll b getting back most of e papers.... Muz start praying le.... I hope for e best man!!! Cant afford 4 anything 2 go wrong le.... I worked for it tis time..... Pls dun disappoint myself..... Pls.... I'll get an ans tmr n i hope it'll be sth i hoped n wished for.....
it's you that i treasure.. 12:50 pm
Oh my!!!!
Weather has been so bad these few days.... The sky is covered with all e haze n it's like living in an oven almost everyday.... It's so hot!!!! E fan oso not much use..... E weather is burning.... I wan live in a ice palace for e time being.... It's much better n cooler n e air might b fresher.... E PSI has reached 150++ during e weekends.... this is bad....
Those poor elderly n young kids.... They suffer e most when haze comes.... Breathing in unfresh (if there's such a word) air is bad for all of us... *cough cough*
Hope e haze will clear soon n rain will follow.... like tt can help clear e skies n have cooler weather.....
e vision of e opp block is blurred thx 2 e haze.... bad bad bad....
it's you that i treasure.. 12:36 pm
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Wonderful events..... (09/09/2006)
Today is a super duper special day.... Went to attend my aunt's graduation ceremony n my 1st time at Ritz Carlton... E hotel disappointed me... Ritz Carlton has always been a 'high class' n 'wow' hotel.... But on e way 2 e hotel, it wasnt as 'wow' as i thought it was..... It was situated in quite a 'ulu' area, surrounded by trees.... But when inside e hotel, it wasnt so bad.... There's still e 'high class' feel inside..... there's someone who will open e car door 4 u n lead u inside e hotel.... Friendly staff will be somewhere there 2 help u.... so cool.... The hotel is quite big n different from amara hottel, merittus mandarin, etc.... mayb cuz it's situated uphill ba...
e most exciting part is still e graduation ceremony... My aunt juz got her masters.... Yahoo.... It was so shiok.... all sorts of services provided.... There's e graduation bear , lamination or framing up of their graduation cert and photo-taking by professionals in australia.... I oso wan 2 wear e graduation gown.... e feeling of wearing e gown is so once in a lifetime feeling... u'll feel so proud of urself.... I'm looking forward 2 e day when i can wear it n all my family members will b there 2 attend e ceremony with me....

E big big graduation bear
it's you that i treasure.. 11:24 am
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Finally....
Exams finally over le.... A big big big load off my mind.... i feel so light n more carefree now.... Though exams over le but still muz worry bout results.... I juz sincerely hope tt everything goes smoothly n no hiccups will happens.... I juz wan 2 proceed on.... Pls let me!!!! Pls!!! Next wed n i'll get e results.... it mayb long but in the twinkling of an eye, it'll b here.... Good things never last while bad stuff happens 1 after another.... Shall not think about all this 4 e moment... Rest(i seriously need this) n relax..... I've tried my best n put in e effort this time n i hope e results will be better n at least all pass!!!! Fingers crossed n praying real hard....Now, i'll have more time 2 blog le.... Shall update u guys wat happen over e last few weeks..... Minnie, e story of S** shall continue.... hee~~ looking forward 2 sentosa trip n OBS!!!! yahoo..... I'm super excited..... Cant wait 2 go for OBS n enjoy e course again!!! U'll love it.... Tt's all for now.... Good night...
it's you that i treasure.. 10:53 pm