Wednesday, October 01, 2008
Been so packed these few weeks that i dun even have time for myself. Work, sch, netball. My world revolved round these thngs for the past few weeks. I dun even have much time to sleep and rest. I think i shd seriously reschedule all my stuff. If not, i think i'll faint from fatigue soon. Things have not been going smoothly AGAIN!!!!! I do feel myself slipping back to the past. I'm so confirmed this time! But, i've got this new found fren who's willing to be my listening ear n can confide in her if there's anything. Thanks girl! i appreciate it! Well, i'm feeling better now le. Thanks for ur concern yest. So sorry to have kept u worried. PWC league is starting next wed. I'm feeling abit nervous n scared now. Cuz the teams we're playing against are quite strong teams and it's been so many years since i last played netball. This will be my 1st competitive match after such a long long break frm netball. Nervous yet i'm looking forward to the league. Hee. I have got to buy new shoes at this time as the current one i'm wearing has gave way. What timing. Gotta go look for a new pair b4 fri and spent money again. Really money no enuf to use! I need my pay real soon! Going to hunt for my new shoes tmr with my fren @ Queensway. Hope can get some real good bargain. :)
it's you that i treasure.. 7:28 pm
Many thoughts have been going thru my mind for the past few weeks. I’ve embarked on a new journey. It’s a totally different experience. New challenges and obstacles are presented to me. However, I dunno if I’m up to the task not. Juz a few weeks into my new phase of life, i’ve feel the strain le. I need the support and encouragement. At times, I do like giving up. But do I have the choice to do so? I dun wish to revert back to my former self and go thru those difficult times again. However, this time would be so different. I would lack the support i got the previous time. I can feel myself sinking slowly back into that situation. HELP!!!! The symptoms are gradually coming back. Hard as i try to pull myself back to this world, I lack the strong willpower and the desire to get out of it. People might think that my actions are stupid. But to me, it’s a form of release, a way of seeking help. I think I shd seriously consider what my fren told me the other time. It does make sense. I shall go look for someone reliable! At least in times of need, I have someone there to help me and pull me up when I fall.However, over-reliance on someone is bad. If the person is not able to be there for u at times, u'll juz crumble. It's better to be independent yet be reliant on someone at some times.
it's you that i treasure.. 7:17 pm